haha late night ponderings.
June 8, 2007so i was searching for mr. wasserman’s infamous facebook. not that he would wish to be friends with me on it hahaa… so i typed in google and his blog came up. i read quite a lot of it. it find it admirable that he could write on such a basis and take the time from this non stop work life that we all seem to have. he is lucky to be going to sweden. i wish i could go somewhere different and actually live. anyway, with everything in my life, i feel that i failed to use the blogs to my advantage. and probably to how mr. wasserman would have appreciated from his students. and a lot of people didn’t really get into posting them. maybe it would have worked better if the classes were smaller. people would be able to communicate more and everything would be more person. i remember, back in 5th grade, the only year i went to private school, with 14 people in my grade, i loved learning so much more, almost because it felt more personal and purposeful.
However, i really wish that i had used the blog more, looking back at the year. i feel like i lost my chance. i feel this way about about a lot of things. it is interesting to think how people choose, or don’t choose to live their lives. How much of it is controlled by others..from teachers and their hw, to piers (INFLUENCE. like how disgusting it is that pretty much everyone i know goes outside and smokes those THINGS everyday.) and that random person who smiled at you. and by your own mind. our ambitions, priorities, and desires. i feel the way i don’t want to feel all the time, and like that part of my mind has a grip on my life.
Anyway. the odyssey project. i feel that it will be finished, and it will somehow get done by tuesday. Upon the fact alone that so many people didn’t even BOTHER to show up to the filming at peoples houses, people haven’t shown the same efforts that we put everywhere else. Personally, throughout the project i almost wished there was more i could do. i was reluctant to have a large part, in fear of miserably failing in memorizing the lines, especially around finals and all. and as for personal opinions on the project, i felt like whenever i said something no one even bothered to listen, and that their way was better. and then everyone finished writing the script on that day, which i had no idea was even going to happen. maybe its because i am so out of it. maybe its because my body which i have no control over insists on making me fall asleep when i don’t want to. but either way, its too late now. Undertaking this project was quite brave of the teachers–having so many students. that in itself will improve the movie, which i am sure will come out fine in the end. i am excited to see it.
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